this week has given me a lot of time to think about the future. luke and i have had this discussion many times throughout the past year, and have yet to come to a conclusion about what our future holds. we know two things for sure: luke is going to grad school (
where is the question) and that i am going to get a job as a teacher (
how and
where are the questions). i am so proud of luke and how much he has accomplished in his educational career. he is by far the smartest person i know, and i know he will have no problems getting into a school with a good program. this scares the crap out of me. he's applying at schools across the united states, from california to new york to pennsylvania to illinois, and more. up until recently, i've been nothing but excited about this. i mean seriously...we're getting out of minnesota, the only place we've known as
home for our entire lives.
the reason i've had so much time to think is because luke has been in chicago with his family. he made appointments to meet with two different colleges about their grad programs, and from what he's told me over the phone, he loves it there. i really wish i was there so i could be getting excited about it. if you think about it, our big move would be only like a year from the end of summer, if not sooner. it just gets closer and closer, and now i'm starting to panic because when people ask me what we're doing after we graduate i have nothing concrete to tell them...just, "luke's going to grad school. so, where ever that takes us." i would just like to make it clear that i have no problem going where he needs to go. my career, while semi-inflexible, is definitely more flexible then his. it's what married people do for each other. :)
needless to say, while i am nervous, i think my most recent realization is that i am so excited for what the future holds for us...because it is
our future. the one we're going to share, and talk about, and grow old together during. there are not words to describe how excited i am to experience it...
...no matter where it takes us. (hehe...
us. i like the sound of that)
i love you, luke.
& miss you. you can come home now.
xox, eden